It’s been a moment since I published something. Wish I could blame it on anyone else, but really I’ve just been anxious about it. For a while there, I kept the very existance of this blog hidden from practically everyone. Then, I started mentioning it to a few people, because I valued their feedback. Generally, it was quite positive, yet hearing this made me feel… unworthy? to keep sharing notes on here.
Anyway: Tonight was all about realizing how little I know, about most every subject that is influential in my life at present. I really am at best an amateur, and while I can hide from that reality often enough, when it’s just me here at home, there is nobody to deceive, and I am left with reality. Realizing how little I know comes with a benefit, though. The person that does not know everything yet has almost everything left to learn. Remembering the feeling of learning something new, be it a tiny improvement in a process or a whole new way to approach a subject, learning something new is to me one of the greatest pleasures in life, one of my driving forces.
Yes, there is much to be learned, and it’s good to remember just how little I know. Instead of beating myself up, though, I can take some solace in knowing I get to experience the joy of discovery for a long time to come.
Published on April 30, 2024